after a banquet, party... when i watch a SNS like mixi (i have few friends)... during breaktimes in group trainings... when i go straight back my home alone... nonworking days... when i write this journal about this damn matter.

it's quite difficult for me to make a good relationship with others. not olny shy of people who meet first, but also i feel fear to keep in touch with them ever after i have some time with them. the reason is i don't have any idea, techniq…